Happiness

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.

~Helen Keller

I love that happy feeling. I really ought to cherish it more when it comes. One of my goals is to be happy. It seems easy enough. Oh, how I wish that was true. Unfortunately for me, happiness is not easy. Not even a little bit. For me, happiness takes work. It is something that is always on my mind. It is something I work hard to find and keep. And while searching for happiness, I also discover things that will not bring me happiness. Although this might sound selfish, I have to make myself a priority. It isn't easy. I am a natural people pleaser and frequently put others ahead of myself. Through my self discovery/self realization, I know the things and people that make me unhappy. It goes against my nature, but I am trying to limit my time with people that make me unhappy. Even if those people are people that I love. It's a double edged sword.

I still am looking for inner peace. Especially regarding things and people I can't control. I wish I could forgive. I really do. However, it is incredibly hard. Another thing that goes against my nature. So for right now, I am trying to not hold onto my anger. Maybe if I get really good at that, I can try forgiveness.